May 4 Blog Challenge

***Warning***

This post contains a spider image

Today is all about what I am afraid of.

Initially I thought "oh, that's a short post, spiders". I can't stand them! I thought the spiders here were bad until I went to South Africa and was introduced to Rain Spiders (so called because they come in from the rain - lovely, yes? NO!) I also had a button spider (African equivalent of a black widow!) living under the toilet cistern. I didn't realise thats what it was for several days. I could have died ha ha!
I think I developed this fear when I was a teenager and woke up one night to find a rather large house spider casually wandering across my face UGH!!! Still makes me shudder now. Up until then they never bothered me at all. I'm ok now as long as they don't move but their legs scuttling about makes my skin crawl.

I was really brave once and held a Tarantula. They are so big it wasn't like a spider (luckily it didn't move either!)





I thought about it more through the day and realised the real thing I'm afraid of is something happening to my boys or my husband. If anything happened to any of them I really don't know what I would do. I thought pnd was bad but how would you get through each day? I just couldn't bear it, the pain would be too great. I'm almost in tears just thinking about it!

Really, on a serious note, my greatest fear is running out of JELLIES!! (spoken like a true addict!)

Being someone who suffers with Anxiety, I could write a massive list here! When it is really bad, everything terrifies me. Noises, people, the phone, going out, anything unexpected, almost everything really. I have just mentioned my real fear I have, which is the safety of my family. I guess that goes for everyone though really.